I apologize, little one. I don’t mean to hold your untimely departure against you. Still, you have gone, while we remain in this awful and vacuous bell jar. In so many ways, I hold it against every parent on this planet who has never felt the pain that I feel. I have spent so many years angry at God ~ calling him a cruel God ~ for taking you from me, that I feel like He would banish me from His presence. My anger leaves me to believe that I am not entitled to ask God to help me carry this monstrous pain.
I have held onto my grief for you so tightly because I know of no other way to keep the memory of your existence alive, alive inside of me. If I let go, I will have to live my life in spite of your absence. How can the world go on, how can fate continue executing itself, in the wake of my little one’s death? It seems cruel. So very cruel.
Jellyfish Keychain Pattern
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Supplies
3.5mm crochet hook
Red Heart SuperSaver Yarn
9mm safety eyes
The Pattern
Body of Jellyfish
Rd1: starting at the top of your jellyfish...